I have said before that life is short; life is precious; life is meant to be lived to the fullest. Well, easy for me to say right? I don’t know what you are going through. Likewise, you don’t know what I am going through. My best guess is, if you are living and breathing, if you love someone, if you have a job, if you have responsibilities, you are likely going through something. Life is happening to everyone, all the time.
Last week I found out I passed my genetic mutation to my daughter. I was in shock. I didn’t think the test results would be positive, but there we were, sitting together in the genetics office with the doctor and the genetics counselor receiving this life changing information. I had to keep a brave face for my daughter. I didn’t want her to panic, but inside I was shaken. I know the statistics. I know the preventative measures. I know all of those things, but what I don’t know is what the future really holds. My crystal ball is just an ornament, no prophetic words coming from that glass ball.
I cried. I slept. I cried some more. I slept some more. I let my newfound dietary lifestyle fall by the wayside temporarily. I didn’t have it in me to eat for a few days. I didn’t go to the gym. My daughter and I took a few days together to just exist. I guess at this time there isn’t much else you can do but EXIST.
The whoa is me is over and we have Dr appointments scheduled soon. Now, we wait.
All the while that this has been going on my dear friend has been accompanying her mother to chemo treatments for stage iv cancer. Despite the fact that we are on opposite sides of the country, my friend is such a master social media networker, I feel like I am in the battlefield with them. They are most certainly in my prayers often.
Then, today, my dear friend text messages me……..”I found out some interesting news today.” I was for sure she was going to share juicy gossip or some amazing recipe that tastes like chocolate cake but has the same macro content of egg whites. No such luck, “I have lynch syndrome.” So many things flooded my mind, and with all my long winded communication, the best I could text back was, “what!?!” She quickly ran down her family history, which after I heard it together, made complete sense. I wish I had known before, but I don’t know what more I could have done outside of encouraging genetic testing. (this blog is not about genetic testing)
My thoughts went to her three small children, and the battle set before them. I hope that I will serve as a source of support and information, but the greatest advice I can give anyone is………………
Watch the sunset with your love.
Stop and appreciate the magnificent beauty of a beautiful bloom.
Move across the country for love.
Be brave enough to fall off that new bike.
Buy the shoes.
Throw out that bad food.
Don’t take yourself so serious.
Try a new hobby.
Fall and get back up again.
Take time for new adventures with old friends.
Life does go on. Life is happening everyday, everywhere, don’t let it pass you by. Live it like it is your last.